I wanted the disease to be my punishment. He kept going and I didn't tell him the condom broke.
Check out a blog dedicated to sharing secrets anonomously. Folks send in a post card with a confession/secret/longing, etc, and it is posted.
Some are heartbreaking. Some funny ("I used to pee in snowballs before I threw them at my friends"). All are achingly human.
Deeply moving. Thanks Scott